Low Larynx Tragedy? Or a Bless?

Fear death. Love life.

Love who I am today. Love who I was.

Love everyone who has made it such a wonderful life for me so far.

And I believe I am yet to continue living this wonderful life for all its worth.

My singing never hurts. Nor my throat ever was.

Even COM205 taught you how to position your voice-making muscles and organs so you can project a loud voice naturally.

But I do not know what really happened last night as I had the control to move my larynx lower and lower down my neck. At first, I could raise it back up to its initial position. But then, I swallowed from a glass of water so to calm me from that weird thing, but my larynx dropped down until I could not feel it anymore. I was too panicked with the weird sensation. My Adam’s apple is down there, not on the place where it is usually located.

Clearing throat is supposed to be felt somewhere near your jaw. So is the vocal chord vibration is supposed to be somewhere in the middle of the neck. But that was happening just below my neck. Really weird, it felt like my voice belongs to me no more. I can control it, but it felt like my voice had to travel distance before it reached my mouth. Alien, felt so alien.

But like the voice which had to travel distance, I could feel the air I breathe traveling the distance before reaching my mouth or nose. That was also a very different sensation from regular breathing. And my initial reaction was that, oh dear, was my bone separated? My breathing was ridiculously different. Adam’s apple is supposed to be right up there, not down there! If it is down there, then there is a possibility that it has gone loose. Or worse, perhaps my trachea is no more connected to my jaw.

Now to rethink it: if it is no more connected, how could my head stay still on its position? How could I still breathe? How could I still talk?

The moment they are separated, my jaw would have dropped down and I would have no more bones to support my head. I would have died instantly, no time to focusing on my neck and felt that air touching my inner body. Perhaps what I felt was the oxygen crawling on my trachea, not leaking out from the trachea.

That is what happens when you are in the middle of the night with a really low layrnx, lack of sleep, and too many worrying thoughts. I should have just gone to sleep immediately three hours earlier instead of typing that over-the-top and dramatic post. Perhaps I would just wake up with my larynx back on its regular position.

But I still need some scientific explanations over this.

• How and why the hell could I lower my larynx?

• Is that normal? If it is, is that necessarily a good thing for my body to have such a low larynx?

• If so, then how do I lock it back on its initial position immediately?

Who knows? To be able to control my larynx might as well be a bless – an ability that I never knew I had.

Why do I had to take everything in such a negative light? I am to seek explanations. If there are no experts at Medan who can explain this, perhaps I would be thankful to have COM202 so that I can search “low AND larynx” somewhere on LexisNexis and EBSCOhost.

I need something logical to back up the condition I had. And I needed to be more rational the next time something weird happens to me. To seek a rationale first before I start to think too much.

PS. That stupid post has been password-protected because that was a demonstration of how irrational I could be. Logic is supposed to be deduced from evidences or reasoned thoughts or everything, not to jump into forgone conclusion (death?) in a matter of minutes. I am a rational person and I do not wish to document that irrational piece of writing for public purposes. But if you do want to see it, at least to see how sincere and naive I could be, you can always ask the password from me.